Azi Dynasty

"I LOOK IN THE MIRROR, MY ONLY OPPONENT" -Jay-z

Thoughts on love

I sometimes think that I fall in love too quickly. Do I even know the true meaning of love? Does anyone know? What if we think we know what love is because we experience a feeling that we never had with a previous partner. Is it possible that we might just like the person a little more then we did the last and we just mistake it for love? I don’t think I have been in love. Why? because its so easy for me to forget about the person and to disappear as if I never existed. Why is it easy for my to detach my self from someone? I sometimes think that I’m going end up alone because I do have commitment issues deep down inside. I like to think that I’m this hopeless romantic but then I think the worse and I mess things up before thee other person can. Is it possible to love two people at the same time? Is it possible to never fall in love? These questions are something that boggle my mind every day and every night. Where do I find the answer? Is it something within or something I can get from someone or someplace else. I guess only time will tell.

I can legit count on both my hands the times we have gotten along. The times where we haven’t argued or disagreed, or didn’t want to just kill each other. But despite of all our differences, you have taught me how to be a strong and independent woman. You have taught me what it’s like to be a hard working woman and not to depend on any man. How to have my own and having felt good working for it. We are working really hard on fixing our relationship and thats all i can ask for. i love you mom dukes

I can legit count on both my hands the times we have gotten along. The times where we haven’t argued or disagreed, or didn’t want to just kill each other. But despite of all our differences, you have taught me how to be a strong and independent woman. You have taught me what it’s like to be a hard working woman and not to depend on any man. How to have my own and having felt good working for it. We are working really hard on fixing our relationship and thats all i can ask for. i love you mom dukes

"My Turning Point"
5 girls already they were all his pride and joy
until dad received a phone call, he now had a little boy
Then I came along 8 kids and hoping for the best
dad working long hard nights, just to help with our success 
The boy was the only one that really took advantage 
Me on the other hand, always given second chances 
My older sisters proud because of government care
all of them on things like food stamps and welfare 
Dad will sit me down and use them as an example
Didn’t want to end up like them, so I knew what I had to do
Hating to do the hard work but I knew I will get there someday
Brother already succeeding, already having his BA 
Dad would say “look at ruben, he’s already set,
already got his master’s, that’s what you need to get”
Didn’t really care what my brother got or had
Being in my brother’s shadow made me really mad
Bro always stressed how school was to help me
not for him, my sister’s or even our daddy
Going to school will make life easier and give you many perks 
he never had a job, now in an office and barely works
Got a part-time job working with kids in an after-school
Me work with kids??? no patience I though I would be cruel
But I learned something about myself as I was there
These kids have no one pushing them, I have a family that cares
Wanting to open my own program is the plan
Thought to myself Azi, go back to school and do it, I know you can
Still didn’t like school at all, I just wanted to leave
Until I realized I wanted to succeed more than I wanted to breathe.
Azi Gonzalez 

"My Turning Point"

5 girls already they were all his pride and joy

until dad received a phone call, he now had a little boy

Then I came along 8 kids and hoping for the best

dad working long hard nights, just to help with our success 

The boy was the only one that really took advantage 

Me on the other hand, always given second chances 

My older sisters proud because of government care

all of them on things like food stamps and welfare 

Dad will sit me down and use them as an example

Didn’t want to end up like them, so I knew what I had to do

Hating to do the hard work but I knew I will get there someday

Brother already succeeding, already having his BA 

Dad would say “look at ruben, he’s already set,

already got his master’s, that’s what you need to get”

Didn’t really care what my brother got or had

Being in my brother’s shadow made me really mad

Bro always stressed how school was to help me

not for him, my sister’s or even our daddy

Going to school will make life easier and give you many perks 

he never had a job, now in an office and barely works

Got a part-time job working with kids in an after-school

Me work with kids??? no patience I though I would be cruel

But I learned something about myself as I was there

These kids have no one pushing them, I have a family that cares

Wanting to open my own program is the plan

Thought to myself Azi, go back to school and do it, I know you can

Still didn’t like school at all, I just wanted to leave

Until I realized I wanted to succeed more than I wanted to breathe.

Azi Gonzalez 

Dedicated to my HOV 

"How I Feel" 
Someday you’ll know just how I feel & hear the things I wish I could say
The times when I wanted to tell you how I though about you everyday
The way I felt deep down inside, the uneasy feeling I had 
How you made a difference, how you helped me through the bad
I wish it was more than friendship, I wish this feeling could be shared
I want you to know I love you, I wish I wasn’t so scared
I don’t know how to tell you, I guess this much is true
I just want you to know, that today I was thinking of you
As each day goes by, the more time is spent
The only thing that happens is that the time comes & now has went
I know you don’t think of me like I think about you
As I write this poem, I am thinking this through
Maybe I will tell you just how I feel
Maybe it’s time I think this could be real
But maybe one touch is it, it could be what draws the line
I keep telling myself this time after time
But I want you to know how my heart feels, I wish you only knew
I want you to love me, the way that I love you

Azi Gonzalez 

Dedicated to my HOV 

"How I Feel" 

Someday you’ll know just how I feel & hear the things I wish I could say

The times when I wanted to tell you how I though about you everyday

The way I felt deep down inside, the uneasy feeling I had 

How you made a difference, how you helped me through the bad

I wish it was more than friendship, I wish this feeling could be shared

I want you to know I love you, I wish I wasn’t so scared

I don’t know how to tell you, I guess this much is true

I just want you to know, that today I was thinking of you

As each day goes by, the more time is spent

The only thing that happens is that the time comes & now has went

I know you don’t think of me like I think about you

As I write this poem, I am thinking this through

Maybe I will tell you just how I feel

Maybe it’s time I think this could be real

But maybe one touch is it, it could be what draws the line

I keep telling myself this time after time

But I want you to know how my heart feels, I wish you only knew

I want you to love me, the way that I love you

Azi Gonzalez 

"Beyonce Songs"

A heart full of "RESENTMENT" but regardless of anything "I CARE" about you. I still ask myself "WHY DON’T YOU LOVE ME" if you had me at "HELLO”. I can honestly say that your my ”BEAUTIFUL NIGHTMARE” & no matter what I’m just a ”BROKEN HEARTED GIRL”. What should I do? Should I leave you alone? or should I just take charge & “DANCE FOR YOU”. I can’t just let this go. Remember at one point I told you ”YOU ARE MY ROCK” but now, I just want you to ”DISAPPEAR”

To be honest, I’m just ”SCARED OF LONELY” and ”I’D RATHER GO BLIND” then to see you with someone else. My girls always tell me "KICK HIM OUT” but I have to be patient with this ”SLOW LOVE”. Sometimes I want to tell you to "BACK UP” because you’ve been nothing but a ”BEAUTIFUL LIAR”. Then I start to think maybe you really are the ”BEST THING I NEVER HAD”. It’s like ”THE CLOSER I GET TO YOU” the more I realize I should "UPGRADE YOU” but then I stop and think maybe you really are ”IRREPLACEABLE”. They say love is like a big ”PARTY” and boy "I WAS HERE" for the fun times. Loving you with every bit of me, called you "DADDY” and put your ”LOVE ON TOP” & still do because let’s face it, I’m ”STILL IN LOVE”. I may be sounding like a "DIVA” but I know your going to be mine. My love is so pour, I’m sure you can see it’s ”HALO”. 

They say leave the old shoes in the past and get some ”NEW SHOES” but I say being this ”DANGEROUSLY IN LOVE” only happens ”ONCE IN A LIFE TIME”. I guess I really am ”CRAZY IN LOVE” but to me "BABY YOUR THE ONLY ONE’' & the ”CARDS NEVER LIE”. When were good it feels like I’m ”DREAMING”. I’ll admit, I was your "SUGA MAMA" & boy the way you would ”CHECK UP ON IT” would make me spoil you even more. We were like "BONNIE & CLYDE", you know “1+1”. But "I’M ALONE NOW". The "EGO" I once had is now gone & now I just need to "STAND UP” alone. This heartbreak is painful, but ”IF I WERE A BOY” I know I wouldn’t have to go through it!!!

Azi Gonzalez 

"Best Friend"

My Best friend, who knew everything I felt
She knew my every weakness & the problems I’ve been dealt 
She understood my wonders & listened to my dreams
She listened to how I felt & knew what it all means 
Not once did she interrupt me or tell me I was wrong
She understood what I was going through and promised she’d stay strong
I reached out to this friend to show her that I care 
To pull her close & let her know how much I need her there
I went to hold her hand, to pull her a bit nearer
& realized that this perfect friend I found, was nothing but my mirror

Azi Gonzalez 

"Best Friend"

My Best friend, who knew everything I felt

She knew my every weakness & the problems I’ve been dealt 

She understood my wonders & listened to my dreams

She listened to how I felt & knew what it all means 

Not once did she interrupt me or tell me I was wrong

She understood what I was going through and promised she’d stay strong

I reached out to this friend to show her that I care 

To pull her close & let her know how much I need her there

I went to hold her hand, to pull her a bit nearer

& realized that this perfect friend I found, was nothing but my mirror

Azi Gonzalez 

Three best friends all from the same hood 
The bond is unbreakable always make sure the other is good 
We know are weaknesses, as well as our strengths 
We defend and protect and we go to great lengths 
One is torn between a boy and a girl
The boy has her heart but the girl is her world
The boy is stuck on a chick from the past 
While the chick is with the girl who she claimed it wouldn’t last 
A few sweet text that come from the guy
All say I love you so she begins to cry 
She no longer speaks to the fem 
Because she’s with her fiance so she’s letting them do them 
She wants to be with him but she doesn’t see promise
Thinking to herself he’s not ready so I’m not going through this

Now it’s time to talk about the guy in the crew
He’s fallen for someone hard but this isn’t something new
The girl has a kid and is promised to be wed 
But they speak every night before they go to bed 
Good Morning texts from her reach his phone
Wishing he and her could be alone 
He walks her to her car every day after work 
Kissing her goodbye and watch her go home to that jerk 
She’s claims to be unhappy but yet she stays 
Says it’s for her son but we’ve heard that story for days
So he thinks to himself what can I do to move on and forget 
Thinks about his past and the things he regrets 
Like treating his girlfriends wrong because it seems like this is karma
That he’s fallen for someone older and can’t seem to get away from her

Now the last friend to mention has been hurting so long
But something keeps her attached to her Mr. Wrong
It’s been three years of this “relationship”
Good times and bad but neither or them can dip
They both love each other but something is in the way
She makes excuses for him just so she can stay
What is he a friend, a boyfriend, or lover
No matter the title to her that man is like no other 
He has his own issues and she’s always there to listen
But at times she gets fed up like when will this all end
She gives him whatever he needs to survive
He says they’re just friends but tells his brother she’s his wife
This confusion with them is what keeps them going back
He’s her Hov, She’s his B they’ll deny it but facts are facts
One day they might marry or maybe not speak again
Until they know for sure, the next chapter starts with, “And Then”

These friends go through it no matter what the situation 
But they always have each other’s backs 
And there’s no complication 
Alfred, Jo and Azi family till the end
Troublesome three just call them best friends 
Azi G

Three best friends all from the same hood 

The bond is unbreakable always make sure the other is good 

We know are weaknesses, as well as our strengths 

We defend and protect and we go to great lengths 

One is torn between a boy and a girl

The boy has her heart but the girl is her world

The boy is stuck on a chick from the past 

While the chick is with the girl who she claimed it wouldn’t last 

A few sweet text that come from the guy

All say I love you so she begins to cry 

She no longer speaks to the fem 

Because she’s with her fiance so she’s letting them do them 

She wants to be with him but she doesn’t see promise

Thinking to herself he’s not ready so I’m not going through this


Now it’s time to talk about the guy in the crew

He’s fallen for someone hard but this isn’t something new

The girl has a kid and is promised to be wed 

But they speak every night before they go to bed 

Good Morning texts from her reach his phone

Wishing he and her could be alone 

He walks her to her car every day after work 

Kissing her goodbye and watch her go home to that jerk 

She’s claims to be unhappy but yet she stays 

Says it’s for her son but we’ve heard that story for days

So he thinks to himself what can I do to move on and forget 

Thinks about his past and the things he regrets 

Like treating his girlfriends wrong because it seems like this is karma

That he’s fallen for someone older and can’t seem to get away from her


Now the last friend to mention has been hurting so long

But something keeps her attached to her Mr. Wrong

It’s been three years of this “relationship”

Good times and bad but neither or them can dip

They both love each other but something is in the way

She makes excuses for him just so she can stay

What is he a friend, a boyfriend, or lover

No matter the title to her that man is like no other 

He has his own issues and she’s always there to listen

But at times she gets fed up like when will this all end

She gives him whatever he needs to survive

He says they’re just friends but tells his brother she’s his wife

This confusion with them is what keeps them going back

He’s her Hov, She’s his B they’ll deny it but facts are facts

One day they might marry or maybe not speak again

Until they know for sure, the next chapter starts with, “And Then”



These friends go through it no matter what the situation 

But they always have each other’s backs 

And there’s no complication 

Alfred, Jo and Azi family till the end

Troublesome three just call them best friends 

Azi G

i wrote this the second my brother told us he purchased his home and he’s moving out! 
"Time to Leave" 
*You’ve always been here for me, but now you are about to leave; I know we fuss and we fight, but I do love you with all my might
*You are my big brother and there is no other; No one can take your place and when you leave there will be an big empty space
*We’ve never been close until we got older, I’m glad things changed and we got stronger; Because of the things that big brothers do, makes me really grateful for the 22 years I’ve lived with you
*I remember when I was small and I would always fall, you were always there for me and I knew you always will be; You told me not to cry that it would be ok, even if I thought you lied it was like my big brother saved the day
*You’ve made me laugh, you’ve made me cry, you’ve even helped me hide some lies; I love you is something I don’t say enough, but I want you to know, when you leave it will be really tough
*I don’t know how life would be, without you here beside me; you’ve lived with me for 22 years, but now well soon be shedding goodbye tears
*I know you have to move out and start a life of your own, but promise me without a doubt you’ll never forget us back home 
Azi G

i wrote this the second my brother told us he purchased his home and he’s moving out! 

"Time to Leave" 

*You’ve always been here for me, but now you are about to leave; I know we fuss and we fight, but I do love you with all my might

*You are my big brother and there is no other; No one can take your place and when you leave there will be an big empty space

*We’ve never been close until we got older, I’m glad things changed and we got stronger; Because of the things that big brothers do, makes me really grateful for the 22 years I’ve lived with you

*I remember when I was small and I would always fall, you were always there for me and I knew you always will be; You told me not to cry that it would be ok, even if I thought you lied it was like my big brother saved the day

*You’ve made me laugh, you’ve made me cry, you’ve even helped me hide some lies; I love you is something I don’t say enough, but I want you to know, when you leave it will be really tough

*I don’t know how life would be, without you here beside me; you’ve lived with me for 22 years, but now well soon be shedding goodbye tears

*I know you have to move out and start a life of your own, but promise me without a doubt you’ll never forget us back home 

Azi G

I consider myself a crayon, I may not be your favorite color but eventually you’ll need me to finish your picture <3

I consider myself a crayon, I may not be your favorite color but eventually you’ll need me to finish your picture <3

Lying to Myself

Did you ever fall for someone you knew you shouldn’t 

Try hard to fight your feelings but you just couldn’t

You fall deeper each passing day 

but try to hide it in every possible way 

He’s only a friend and nothing else 

That’s the lie you keep telling yourself 

You keep saying he’s just a bud 

But deep down inside your falling on love

You get so giddy when you meet his eyes

But keep reminding yourself this isn’t right

A simple glance turns into a stare 

But you pretend that don’t care 

It’s not right for the two of you to be 

It’s the way I hide so one can see?

But how long will you pretend?

Keep lying that he’s just a friend?

Perhaps your feelings you can never show

Perhaps it’s wrong for him to know

Your friendship can’t be risked over this 

So being his girl is an impossible wish

Azi G